Well so far today is the first day I have felt good enough to sit at my computer and do any part of turning it on and writing. I have been so sick all I know is I want to feel better very soon PLEASE! I got online today to try and get my blog typed in but for some reason I couldnt remember my password! Well then I had blogger send my password to my email and guess what, my kaplan email was not letting me in to see my emails! GRRRRRRRRRR I was almost ready to close the laptop and go back to bed when I call tech for email help! Now Im back into blogger and my kaplan email and Im ready to go to bed!
       Well remember my ex and my daughter with there issues? Well the ex has tried to make me out to be the bad one again! well I have kept this binder of my entire marrage and after, the entire time when he visited or called everything! I let my daughter read it, she was so mad at her father for all his lies she called him the other day just to tell him to leave her alone! Guess what happened next? He didnt leave her alone he started texting her and emailing her and even screaming at her on facebook!! Now she sees that what I have said is what happened!

Well I guess we have had some exciting news around here! My ex-husband is now tring to get my daughter in his life!! He walked away from her ten years ago and now that shes having a baby he thinks she is just going to go running to daddy! Well I have never said anything negative to any of my girls about there fathers and now he is trashing me like normal and he thinks shes going to beleive everything he says. Guess what! not going to happen! I have always answered my girls questions about where there dad is, I always gave truthful answers without making them sound bad. I never wanted to be the mom that always talk crap about the babys daddy and then get mad when the child runns to daddy later and treats you like crap because you lied to the child. Children are not stupid they find out in the end.
         I try and teach my girls lies just come back to bite you where the sun dont shine. Thats why I make a horrable lier. I just dont do it anymore cause its not worth it to me. Children always know who loves them and who is just lieing.

Yet another day goes by...... Last night my oldest daughter decieded it was time to tell me off!! She also thought me giving her the ablitiy to claim herself on taxes giving her a 500. 00 fed return was not good enough, she thinks Im paying her because she dont want to come home!!! She has procedded to tell the entire block Im a horable person and I cant be trusted, she went as far as telling people I treat her like a maid, and dont feed her!! She started a fight with my pregnant daughter last night, then I had that daughter calling me all kinds of names and crap, until I turned my phone off and went to bed crying!! Im sick of crying, sick of being sick, sick of my kids right now, man Im just had so much I dont want to be here no more!!!
    This morning I woke up not being able to breathe well so much mucus in my nose and throgt, all the way down my lungs I cant move much! laying down makes me choke and sitting up makes me chough and peee!! The doctors have tryied to get leviquin to go through my insurance but the stupid state wont pay for it because Im on the wrong insurance right now. The T19 ppl told me to wait until my HMO kicks in then I will be fine!! I told that lady on the phone THANKS A LOT THATS NOT TILL THE FIRST!!! I guess I might have to die before I can get medication!
     Sorry to anyone that reads this just needed to vent for a min. Im just tired of being treated like crap!!
  Sorry this is all I can say right now Im going to go back to bed if I can kick them out of it first!

Well tonight is yet another night I get to listen to the kids complain. Valentines day is just an over rated commersalized holiday that causes people to spend money they just dont have. I know I sound like the grinch and maybe I am but holidays just are no fun for me! I never have money to spend on people and when you get a gift you just feel like crap that you cant return the gift!
     For me yeah my kids let me sleep in really late!! yeah 7:00 am is the time Abbie woke me up!! well she normally wakes me at 6. Sunday was speical though her daddy bought me a box of chocolate covered cherries and a card. He wrote my girls names in it and had Abbie give it to me. Pretty nice right? Sad thing is we have been seeing each other for 16 years and I HATE DARK CHOCOLATE!!! Worse yet dark covered cherries!! Thats what he gives me every year and every year he eats them cause he knows I hate them!!
     Mondays are my favorit day of the week!! Once I get the kids off to school the house is quite until 2:20 so I get to sleep all day!! I think I am getting sick though so I sleep alot when Im sick even with all the meds I take I still have my manic and depressive days and I have been on the manic side now for about a week and a half. I have not slept more than 2 hours a night! With the snow that is falling and the cold I can feel the crash coming! I have called my doctor to try and get meds for the crud in my lungs and the infection I feel in my chest but the crabby nurse just never called me back! I guess she is not ready to help me. My doctor is one of the nices doctors in the world if you know whats wrong with you and you dont like going in to see him. I am always able to call him up and ask for anything for myself and or my children and he just orders it. The clinic has now changed there way of answering calls and they tend to filter out the calls. The nurse may not even get the note for two days! I guess I have to go see him so that he can add a note to my file saying just give her what she wants!! I took Audree in there on thursday, we had to see the PA and guess what??! That crazy woman told me my daughter had PINK EYE!! she ordered drops I told her it was not PINK EYE but she thought she new better. I had to take Audree back today to get something different and they made us see her again!! this time I got my way, Audree now has medicaine for the sinis infection that has been coming out her eyes for almost a week now!! See our Doctor never questions me he knows I KNOW my kids and he can save us both time by just giving me what I ask for the first time! Well I know I have been really random but I guess thats me!

Well today I was running around all day. Tina had a 3D ultra sound today and we have to go back again in six weeks for another. The baby's kidneys are larger than they should be so they want to watch to make sure they don't get any bigger. Other than that now we started the every other week visits. One more thing to add to my day!! With me running her back and forth to school, to doctor appointments, and shopping and she don't even live at home any more!! I see her more now that she moved out then I did when she lived at home. Her boyfriend (father of the baby) is a pain in the behind! He is lazy and just a bum. He wont get a job, or cook, or clean but he sits at home drinking smoking weed. He drives me crazy!! One day she called me because he hit her, oh man I think the only reason I didn't go to jail that day was cause he had a warrant for his arrest, for what you might ask!! Child support!!! yeah cause he has two other daughters and he just fathered a third!! she was born two weeks ago and my daughter has been dating him for two years. She didn't want to leave him when she found out about the other baby cause he told her it wasn't his but guess what, OF COURSE ITS HIS! If she would have left him at that point she might not be pregnant, shes doesn't really have the mothering in stick yet. She tried the baby sitting thing as a teenager but she never connected with kids when the baby cry Tina will cry until someone takes the baby.
Then I had to run to IL to buy Newport (i sell them on the block for .60 cents each and I make about $75.00 a carton!! by the time I got home I had to pick up Abbigaill and Audree (the A girls) and take them to the doctor Audree got herself a tattoo and now its a little infected cause she thinks she knows how to fix it. What is it about teenagers that they think everyone else owes them everything and they know it ALL!
I think I am starting to like this blog thing, it is just like a diary, I just vent! I guess when I cant call my friend that is up in point now and hard to get on the phone. Now I can scream to the laptop and it will be right here and I can just vent. Oh I forgot for right now my entire class can read this so I will try and vent with out and bad words. I hope that is what this process is for any ways. Well I have to run for now. Audrees tattoo is looking not too good so I got to try and fix it you know.

Hello Everyone,
I am posting my welcome to my blog as required in our unit 2 blog requirement. So here goes.... Welcome!!
I am not sure what else to add. I guess I can tell you a little about my self again as I did in the introduction board in case you didn't read it there. My name is Tracy and I am a single mother of four girls. There ages are Tanya 19 (she will be 20 march 13), Tina 18 (she is pregnant making me a young gram'ma), Audree 16 (she is an A student with high goals for herself), Abbigaill 8( she thinks she is famous). We run a small animal rescue here in Racine Wisconsin and have found homes for over 100 animals. We currently have 2 dogs (both pitt bulls) BamBam he is almost four and technically he is an American Staffard terrier, this is the smallest of the bread, and Tiny she is a Pit bull/Pomerania mix (I know how weird right) she is three and thinks she is the boss!! We all share our house with five cats; Fancy 6, Kelsey 5, Spitz 5(named after Mark Spitz cause he is a swimmer), Ti-gor 4 (he is just a big fat cat that will steal your food if you let him), and Fuzzy 6 months (Fuzzy thinks he is still a baby and he thinks he can suck on my shirt before he can fall asleep in my arms). We also have two rabbits and a Guinea Pig.